She's Just Me

by Ella J.

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"She's Just Me" is a collection of songs written in 2011/2012 and recorded on a laptop in a bedroom in a suburban house. This homespun EP is exactly what it says it is. Simply Ella, making music for you.

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released March 20, 2012

Music, lyrics, & production by Ella Joklik.

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Ella J. Washington, D.C.

One creature folk band strikes again! Ella J. will stop trying learning new instruments and creating new music when she learns how to sleep.

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Track Name: Introduction
My eyes are made of coffee and my hair is made of silk
I take my coffee bitter with little bit of milk

I am
A little patchwork girl
I am

There are sea-shells in my skin, there are diamonds by my feet
I spent my childhood drawing dreams upon the hot concrete
My heart is full of salt and my dreams are full of sugar, sweetie
I live out winters curled up with a thousand cups of tea

I am
A tiny volcano
I am


I have secrets in my fingers I have novels in my bone
And when I dance I am not graceful, but it sure does feel like home

Oooh, I am a dancer
I am
Oooh, I am a dancer
I am


There are stories I have told and those that I have yet to tell
I have loved so many people oh and I have loved them well

I am,
A lover
I am
I am


My body is well lived in and my soul has traveled wide
But I could use a friend to travel with me at my side

Oooh
I am human
Oooh
We are human
We are
Track Name: Cities
You say now it’s gonna last, all of us
You say now we’re gonna make it
We built up a city -
We built up a city, together

So now I’m here, and you’re there,
We’re scattered everywhere
It’s hard to make the pieces fit together
Hard to stretch them through the time zones, hard to stretch them through the distance

We built a city, we built a city, we built a city
And we named it after ourselves
We built a city, we built a city, we built a city
And we named it after ourselves

And I’ll walk or take a plane,
Ride a bike, or pay for a train going the wrong way
At least I tried, at least I tried, at least I tried to build it up again
We built a city, we built a city, we built a city
And we named it after ourselves

We know the streets like the backs of each other’s hands
I know the alleys and buildings and skyscrapers
We built a city from the ground from our flesh and blood
We built a city, we built a city, we built a city
And we named it after ourselves

I’ll build it up, I’ll build it up,
We’ll build it up,
We’ll build it up
We’ll build a city, and we’ll name it after ourselves
Track Name: Bird-man
And he said, my son don’t fly close to the sun
You will fall from the sky from the sky

I bound the feathers on his two arms
With searing wax, hot, scarlet and warm
And from a man, my lover transformed
And from a man, my lover transformed

Feathered in youth’s invincibility
We took ourselves to the tallest tree
For both of us longed to fly truly free
For both of us longed to fly truly free

Trapped with these silken and sinewy bones
My bird-man and I have strayed far from our homes
If only, if only had both of us known
If only, if only had both of us known

And he said, my son don’t fly close to the sun
You will fall from the sky from the sky

I bound the feathers on his two arms
With searing wax, hot, scarlet and warm
And from a man, my lover transformed
And from a man, my lover transformed

Feathered in youth’s invincibility
We took ourselves to the tallest tree
For both of us longed to fly truly free
For both of us longed to fly truly free

My heart, my soul, soaring up in the sky
Oh how my body has longed to fly
Yet only the bravest had cause to try
Yet only the bravest had cause to try

And he said, my son don’t fly close to the sun
You will fall from the sky from the sky
Track Name: The Wind
I drove my love as far as I could drive
I’m not saying that we had to arrive, it’s just -
There’s no place to be further than the edge
To be stuck out on a ledge -
To be afraid

I took my desire and bottled it up
Our words are not final, they are just strong enough
Your love is a model ship upon the sea
Oh, you mean so much to me
Let the salt spray help you see —

Our love is swallowed in the sea
Just a message in a bottle
Floating home to me
Our love is drifting in a storm
Waiting for a spark
To keep these bodies warm

And these waves have me battered
I’m tired of saying goodbye when I’m still drowning in your eyes
And this wind has me restless
I’m tired of sailing helplessly back into your skies

Our love is swallowed in the sea
Just a message in a bottle
Floating home to me
Our love is drifting in a storm
Waiting for a spark
To keep these bodies warm

And I dared to dream last night
I’m not saying that it’s hard to sleep, it’s just -
I’m at the end of my rope, all my strings are stretched tight
So we’ll spread our wings in flight
Just want to set something a-light

And may the wind set our feathered arms aside
And may the wind carry our sails through the night
And may the wind send our hearts ballooning closer still
Track Name: Shine
The fireflies begin to show outside my narrow-heart cocoon
Their bodies weave and intermingle painlessly into the dark
How easy it is for two small brains to find a way to entertain
This notion of finding a missing part, a matching pair, a another heart
And shine, and shine, and shine -
And shine, and shine, and shine -

Sitting on my back porch screened in from the biting mosquitoes
Yet still I stung from a thousand tiny pricks of consciousness
My library books are overdue, but I can’t think of anything but you
These paper people pouring wisdom make adventure look so easy
And shine, and shine, and shine -
And shine, and shine, and shine -

And I’ll skip my steps and skip my stones
Break my rules and break my bones
Skate on thin ice, and break it too -
To find the way to the heart of you
Wreck it all and build me up
And shine, and shine, and shine -
And shine, and shine, and shine -

My thoughts and words betray me to the light I’ve left behind
But if you were to ask me, I would say I’m sane and sound of mind
How do these little lightning bugs work up the courage to glow all night long?
And shine, and shine, and shine -
And shine, and shine, and shine -

And I’ll skip my steps and skip my stones
Break my rules and break my bones
Skate on thin ice, and break it too -
To find the way to the heart of you
Wreck it all and build me up
And shine, and shine, and shine -
And shine, and shine, and shine -

And shine, and shine, and shine -
And shine, and shine, and shine -
Oh I’ll shine …
Track Name: She's Just Me
She’s got blisters on her lips
She’s got blisters on her feet
She’s got blisters on the tips of her fingers
She’s just me

She gets blisters from singing too loudly
She gets blisters from walking too far
She gets blisters from climbing a mountain
She’s just me

That makes two of us inside my head,
One too many underneath my skin
Oh I know she’s always watching my back
She’s just me

I say stop and she says go
She says yes and I say no
I say goodbye, she says hello
She says take it faster I say take it slow
Take it slow

I just want to stop seeing double
I just want to stop seeing double
I just want to stop seeing double
I just want to stop seeing double

I’ll be laughing when she’s happy
I cry too much when she’s sad
We get pissed off and angry and bitter at the same things,
She’s just me

At the end of the day, she is braver
At the end of the day, she is stronger
At the end of the day there’s one reflection in the mirror
Oh, she’s just me
She's just me

I just want to stop seeing double
I just want to stop seeing double
I just want to stop seeing double
I just want to stop seeing double

At the end of the day, she is braver
At the end of the day, she is stronger
At the end of the day there’s one reflection in the mirror
Oh, she’s just me
She's just me
Track Name: The Fire
I’ll rise up from my sleep
No, I’m not rising with the sun -
These days have left me bruising
Pick up the pieces, I’m undone

And when I sleep, I am restless
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
When I rest, I am sleepless
My blood has boiled down to rust

I’m not waiting for the sun, anymore
You’ll find me as east as east can be
I am running to swallow the sunrise
I am running to be free

I am running, I am running, I am running, I am running
No, I’m not running to escape
I am running, I am running, I am running, I am running
Away
I am running, I am running, I am running
To meet the day (to meet the day)
I’m not waiting for the sun, anymore
I am running to swallow the sunrise

I can feel the burning in my steel and sinew
But I was born going up in flames
There’s not a part of me untouched by the fire
There’s not a part of me untouched by desire

I am running, I am running, I am running, I am running
Away

I am tired to my bones
Can feel it creeping through my skin
How many nights of helpless anger?
My self control is burning thin

I am running
I am running away